#im failing social interaction even on internet

[anch0-a]

How y'all make friends? Like. How? How do i put "friends art" in the tags of a rb without dying. Help

[pshbites]

LOVE ON AiR

SYNOPSiS » two podcast groups, both equally popular on the internet, start interacting with one another. however it isnt how fans want it to be.. OR yn sees sunghoon hating on lauryn hill and accidentally starts an entire fanwar with him.

PAiRiNG » sunghoon x fem!reader

FEAUTRiNG » all of enha, giselle of aespa, txt briefly mentioned

GENRE » smau (social media au), fluff, angst, enemies to lovers (barely), chronically online humor, romance, podcast au, influencer au, HEAVILY inspired from suburb talks and under the influence podcasts, SLOWBURNN

WARNiNGS » profanity, suggestive humor, kys/kms jokes, lots of pop culture references (im chronically online im sorry), drinking, drugs, fanwars, yn haters (BOOOOO), stalking (sorta?) manipulation (NOT FROM SUNGHOON OR Y/N) changes every chapter.

STATUS » completed — (08/03/24) to (10/26/24)

PLAYLiST » your eyes only - enha, after midnight - chappell roan, ex factor - lauryn hill, kiss me - dpr live, read your mind - sabrina carpenter, 3005 - childish gambino, poison poison - renee rapp, thirst - dpr live, just a little bit - enha, daisy - wave to earth, nouvelle vague - wave to earth, thinkin about you - frank ocean. (got carried away .. 😁)

AUTHORS NOTE » BIGGG thanks to my bestest friend ever, my fav british person, @lqfiles , ily so so much and thank you so much for helping me with this process. teaching me how to work tumblr like i was a grandma even tho im only 2 years older than u and making this AMAZING cover (isnt she talented), i love u sooo much more than words can describe, you annoying brit (endearing) 🫶

TAGLIST CLOSED!

written chaps in blue

🔴 RECORDING..

teaser (read first for context!!)

profiles i & profiles ii

1) call my phone a vibrator the way it keeps buzzing

2) YAP CENTRAL EP.135: alpha male podcasts?!

3) first hate thread. feeling nervous

4) pussy slay queen!

5) okay alpha

6) ROUND TABLE EP.149: perfect pitch :o

7) 1 down 3 to go

8) what the fuck is a ynhoon

9) YNXOXO VLOG: night out w/ won and riki

10) wet and bothered

11) just a normal tuesday

12) jungwons evil arc

13) YNXOXO VLOG: cafe date with my girls <3

14) the battle of thirst traps

15) twitch streaming era

16) YAP CENTRAL EP.136: did social media ruin relationships?

17) second interaction: kinda scared

18) fuck skater boys

19) park sunghoon v. round table

20) riki emo era: OVER

21) sunghoons side hoes

22) ROUND TABLE EP.150: we traded phones?!

23) bro define: friend

24) spidey sense

25) on my cellular plan i pay for?

26) YNXOXO VLOG: night time routine + surprise!!

27) a face i would kiss

28) collab of the century

29) YAP CENTRAL EP.137: has love lost its meaning?

30) eyes don’t lie

31) operation: ynhoon (postponed)

32) crybaby

33) operation: ynhoon (BACK ON)

34) chat is this a date yes or no?

35) boss baby jay

36) boyfriend

37) soft or hard?

38) what da heck *tyla voice*

39) YNXOXO VLOG: ice skating! | vlog w/ a special guest!!

40) love is on air

UNCUTS

1) operation: get riki ip banned on twt

2) try not to blow up challenge: FAILED

3) JAYS KITCHEN: my friends trying to help me make food blindfolded. (spoiler: it’s a fail)

4) YNXOXO VLOG: my boyfriend does my makeup voiceover !

5) YAP CENTRAL BLOOPERS: riki kat and yn patreon ad

© all rights to pshbites 2024

[1eos]

RE: social justice praxis online, it's crazy how you can get hate for saying "Yeah, well, I don't care what identity this person has, that shit they did was still horrible even years ago, that's why I tell people who would care about interacting with someone who "was" like that" and get hit with the "You won't let people grow and change 😡" like no, they can change whatever they want, I don't want to interact with them tho, and I want to warn others who might feel the same about this person who used to be harmful or whatever. It's such a joke too, there's this post going around (made by a black person too we are never getting out of the self hatred) about how "we should forgive trans women for having been into hateful and bigoted spaces before they changed, why are we being mean to the most marginalized members of the community?" And its like, seeing that after the whole "white trans women on here shielding themselves with their transness from black trans people calling them out on their racism because they kept arguing that race place is inherently trans" fiasco is like, ummmm idk I think I just don't like white people who were bigots in their youth 🙂 who cares if they are trans or not, they still did that shit. Also, so funny because I looked into the person who made that post before blocking and they literally used to be one of the most hated ppl on the internet because of the bigoted bullshit they had going on back then, they just rebranded, including pretending to be Asian 🫠 and their partner is apparently just as gross, like no wonder you are trying to say calling out people for their 'old' transgressions is mean 🥺 you have a whole closet full of allegations too LMAO

👨🏾‍🦲👨🏾‍🦲👨🏾‍🦲👨🏾‍🦲👨🏾‍🦲👨🏾‍🦲👨🏾‍🦲👨🏾‍🦲👨🏾‍🦲👨🏾‍🦲 not you devouring like that oop! no but literallyyyyyy 😭 and its probably mean of me but when ppl kinda push back at the idea that even if you apologize you're not owed trust and ppl are right to still be wary about you i just assume they've done something LMAO? like without fail whenever i see someone thats like 'the internet won't let ppl grow' i just know in the next 5 years their skeletons are gonna come tumbling out. its just so stupid like no im not gonna give my undivided attention to wipe the asses of white ppl who had to acquire a facet of marginalization to be like 'ohhhh maybe i shouldnt be uber levels racist and kick it down to normal levels of gay people racist' bc a lot of these ppl who 'were' in in hateful bigoted spaces still are in hateful bigoted spaces its just that the spaces now have pride flags attached 😭😭😭😭 like you're still racist even if you get off to calling something a n****r idk what to tell you. and ppl will really argue you down that all discussions on racism center around the ppl who still have crazy unchecked biases hence the way they mass block black ppl that don't agree with them. im soooo over it esp bc i feel like it shows how...........childish people are? surface level? unintelligent? one level of marginalization doesn't negate bigoted views. you can be mariginalized and be a bigot like literally one of the biggest villains in black history is clarence thomas and he's LITERALLY black. and also just bc you can't trust someone who used to be running w bigots doesn't mean you want them dead. i don't care what anyone says if u tell me you used to run with nazis im literally never gonna fuck with you 😭 and im not gonna let ppl be transphobic or homophobic towards you but i am nawtttttttttttt gone be in community like that i dooooooo not care

[ihavenothingtodo10220]

do u ever think how in life we are told to aim for so much success and reach our full potential but then every other average person including celebs, idols etc etc are or have already done so, so why should we also need so much wealth or why should we need to put ourselves out there.

im constantly torn between wanting a simple affordable life that id be happy with maybe in the countryside (but its not affordable nowadays to live simply we still have to slave away) and the other side is that i have a need to constantly prove myself and to gain some type of recognition cause we are always told from kids to aim for the top paying jobs etc etc, most of that is what celebs have or do. i mean it cant always be that great what do rich ppl keep buying for each other dont they run out of things to own eventually cause they already own most rich people items?

fair enough if celebs and idols have talents but i dont im not even remotely pretty enough to do whatever it is they do but again its alwayd the what if i wouldve done things differently, maybe it would feel less narcissitic to want a bit of what celebs have if i already had done something differently yonks ago

the other issue is i no longer feel so attached to society if at all like i dont care to succeed i dont care to fail, im neither fussed if im alive or dead it just dont matter to me anymore, in the end the only thing thats going to happen is i will eventually pass away so no ones exactly going to miss me even in death or heaven as people still have their own lives i wouldnt or havent been anyone special at all

its almost saying how it only matters if its someone rich and famous so we have to be a somebody in order to be remembered otherwise we generally end up being a nobody as it is the way the internet goes into meltdown when celebs pass away as if it wasnt to be expected at some point. but if we arent on social media or we dont have a following we honestly do not matter even if we dont have partners or social group either like im so irrelevant no one gonna notice bar immediate family if i stop existing rofl

the way we have to do everything via a screen and screens are everywhere doesnt help me at all cause i feel further distanced from folk and like i dont belong, i dont need nor want a following but its almost being forced on all of us like people.

even idols cant do anything without needing to show their fans but the idols wouldnt notice every single fan to ever exist would they? all the interactions with celebs that fans have is always monentary or beifly. stays even treat bangchan like a long term permenanttherapist friend. yet neither if them truly know one another, so why do we get so attached to the idea of having thoughts and feelings towards someone whos never going to know us so again it dont matter if we do or dont exist as long as these idols and celebs briefly have enough fame for them to get by

but then what am i someone who just does nothing for a living cause i dont want what others want out of life if that makes sense? i either end up feeling like im from the wrong era dont belong with my generation dont belong with next generations would probably have preferred being in previous generations when things were simpler and affordable

sorry if this ask is a bit morbid, nihilistic or pessimistic i have so many mixed thoughts and feelings about existing lately what do you think? i mean obviously there is much narcissism in the world as it is so wouldnt we just be adding to it? am i just having nearly mid life crisis early? idfk anymore

Honestly people tell you to aim high because not only is it the best way to survive, but also because you can easily improve things. Many people who’ve done a lot were considered sub par, and the main reason they did was pure spite to the people who looked down on them and had more, and then they eventually became those people. It’s a cycle, and it’s human nature. And in this society, whether we like it or not, only the successful can truly be sure they can make it. Even middle-class families can easily crash and burn in the blink of an eye with losing their job and end up without anything to eat. But the successful don’t really have to worry about that, because they have a lot to fall back on. Things are also getting more and more expensive, and only the wealthy can really keep up with that. It’s sad, but reality.

And yeah, I think fans put so much pressure on idols because they’re just that. Idols. They idolize them and see them as these perfect beings far above any and everything, and they delude themselves into thinking they can be with them one day. So if an idol makes one wrong move, or dates someone, that false image comes crashing down. You don’t see that in the west simply because we don’t idolize celebrities to that same capacity. To us they’re not necessarily idols, and they’re much more open about their humanity.

[mabeysomeclasspecting]

You're still doing requests? Awesome! Can you classpect mine 🥺 no need to rush with it ofc, pace yourself! Uhh, lets see.

1. What are your interests/hobbies?

i have a lot of interests but if i have to put a pin on them, its always about exploring something new. watching a mysterious internet arg, writing down worldbuilding ideas, getting myself lost because my hometown start to get too samey, exploring abandoned buildings, and watching plays and backyard gigs. which is ironic because i live in a small-ish town, there is not much excitement or exploration to be done in here, but i make do. other interests of mine would be music. i like music that are weird, distorted, and just off. i love it when the rhythm is a discordant mess. however, just because i seem to go out a lot doesnt mean im the social type. i mean, i try to be, i kinda have to get used to keeping secrets and doing things all alone to get some freedom / agency in life.

2. How Do You See Yourself?

Honestly it depends on which character i latched on to that week. I dont really care for having an internal self. Whatever serves what i want best is my current self. But, turns out im not that good as a social chameleon. So, one thing I can recognize about myself is i don't quit and give up on things even when I should. When I want things, I might not be very motivated to get it, but I'll always work on it no matter how long it takes or how many times it has failed. Oftentimes I worry that im too slow and that no matter how much patience and devotion i have to my wants, I just dont have enough energy to actually get it. Or i'll end up ruining myself in the process.

3. How do you think others see you

Unforgettable. Striking. strange and offputting. Acquaintaces say im okay but a little aloof/strange. My family say i work hard but i have no sense of self preservation, tbh i think theyre biased. My friends think im smart and a little impressive. But closest besties, despite my best efforts, see that i used to be super sheltered and inexperienced in social settings. its terrible!

4. How do you interact with your friends?

Hm, depends on what kind of friends. if theyre the hangout friend, i'll just sit back and occasionally make them laugh with my dumb antics and give out some trivias to make things fun and easy. If theyre the deep conversation friend, i would try to impress them with how much i know. its overcompensating i know.

Its not all roses with me though. Some of my friends did say i can be unsympathetic to their problems. which is surprising to them because they thought im nice. i didnt mean it, i guess i just dont get why people just lament instead of finding a solution. its so... helpless. i dont want to be my younger self who let himself get trapped in his own house and miss out on so much life because theyre too afraid to act. so why people do nothing but feel sad when awful things happen is beyond me. And that comes out harsh when people are used to my lighthearted, easygoing self.

5. What's Important To You

I need to feel good about myself. And that's very much reliant on me working for my dreams. Not some escapism or fantasy. I also want change, a kinder world, justice. I want everyone to get whats been stolen from them. However, I spent so much time and wasted so many opportunities because of that dream, it almost feel like its holding me back from permanently feeling good for myself. but when i think about it, im not angry or disappointed. I like to see the silver lining in everything i guess. but there's limits to this. Yknow the phrase "fighting the good fight?" i think, its not enough to fight, you have to win, no matter how many rules you break or how many things become collateral damage. doesnt matter if youre in the right side of history or how many times you prove bigots wrong if you keep losing and dying. and thats a matter of action and bravery, not morals.

6. Describe the ideal you, what kind of person do you strive to be?

Impressive. Capable and competent at everything. Scares people but in a good way. Get shit done. Have sick-ass tattoos, have lots of friends, Can be relied on for everything. And have traveled to so many places and get so many extraordinary experiences.

(note : i wanted to send you an ask a few months ago, but there was a sudden blackout in my area right after i hit send. pretty sure its gone to the void! but just to make sure, if you see an ask thats similar in content to this (i remember saying i like internet horror, args, music, and urban exploration!) its probably mine! you dont have to answer that)

and my signoff emojis : 🫧🌪️

Hello! I definitely think that ask got lost, but I'm happy to classpect you now :)

Aspects: Breath, Heart, Time

Classes: Prince, Thief, Maid

You seem like a solid Prince of Breath to me! I feel pretty certain, but play around with those other ones if that doesn't feel right

Hope this helps!

[whorrorbvby]

You seem chill, your body is just a bonus, I don’t think it’s the only reason people wanna talk to you though. Just my opinion.

i mean i wholeheartedly agree. I think anyone who fumbles me in any capacity is a fucking idiot 😅 but at least on here when you see who interacts with which posts and which account nsfw vs main it’s blatantly obvious where their interests lie. plus as soon as someone finds out they’re not getting sexual shit from me it never fails we go from being like bffs to barely existing in the same universe except when im deemed worthy enough to be acknowledged. it’s literally why i barely talk to anyone online anymore like people are just becoming too fucking predictable

i know people like me for the person they perceive me as (that sounds more harsh than i want but you know what i mean parasocial relationships and all that) and im grateful for those people in my life im not trying to put those people down by any means. but i would be fooling myself if my appearance isn’t a driving factor in getting anyone to associate with me. like i used to get bullied to shit on here back in the day for being ugly and then i put all my effort into my appearance and started dressing in the way i do now (ie: i was finally able to buy my own clothes 😅) and my socials BLEW the fuck up and then the pepper posts came all hell broke loose. now i have anywhere from trump supporters to tiktok fuckbois with millions on followers in my dms telling me how hot my body is in my dms almost every day and like i get that it comes with the territory (it shouldn’t it takes no effort to not be a sex pest) but like the writing is on the walls. i know why the majority of people are interested in me and it kinda sucks that im always just whittled down to a body by the majority even before the pepper posts started happening.

the internet has not been kind to me over the years i’ll tell you that 🤣

[skullzanta]

Im going to be real here: One thing you have missed is not something that is your fault in any way: It isn't just engagement, this is worse. Corporate involvement. It is not simply that engagement is our enemy, it is that it is a tool of our enemy. It is a method of our enemy. And yes, corporations ARE our enemy, why? Because there needs to be a balance BETWEEN Work AND Life, you cannot mix both. And what is every single dumb CEO doing? Mixing them for its own short gains.

CEOs are almost never good people. And no, Im not being classist. Consider the circumstances of which a CEO is likely to grow up in:

Surrounded by Business Talk that has resulted in Successes, so listen to this success as the thing that raises you.

Has Rich Parents who mean struggle is minimized unless artificially enforced, which pins the child to blame on the parent rather than on poor life skills since the parent has a duty to take care of the child.

As a result of a lack of need to, there is likely very low social interaction with anyone not involved with either business or pre-existing family friendships, thus making isolation.

Lack of non-business focused influences, and alot of "Sharks" exist. "Shark" being a term I use for someone who will chase money as ruthlessly and aggressively as a shark to a trail of blood due to greed and low morals.(Note: Not all sharks, only business sharks, Blahaj is bestie)

Complete lack of Perspectives in most cases as most people WILL move into richer neighbhorhoods if given the chance so they can enjoy better living conditions.

Now- Why did I go through all of this seemingly unrelated Stuff? ALL of the problems the internet is facing is for profit.

Bots? Marketing and Quick Bucks(Scams)

Algorithms? Pushes you into cycles of dependency so you become more involved in the place they control

Censorship? Corporations bow to shareholders, who control their company. And Shareholders have had recent trends of being extremists. Either as puritans, Extremist Right Wing or as extremist Liberals(The kind that intentionally force diversity instead of making it natural or fit in properly)

Sponsorships? This speaks for itself almost, but we have not fully commented on the state of them. Sponsorships are symbiotic, and parasitism is a type of symbiosis very common with them. You know how often you skip those sponsor segments as they feel robotic and not the person? Its almost as if corporate meddling is influencing youtubers themselves.

Media Metas? Regardless of however you feel about them: Dream, Mr. Beast, Logan Paul, Pewdiepie, and Corporations have all contributed to metas revolving around content algorithms and permanently changed how everyone defaultedly makes content, its now geared to juice as much benefit as possible, even when it makes the product worse. (Note: Pewdiepie did not contribute as much as the others, but he DID have an influence with the war against T-Series, which ironically boosted competitiveness)

ALL of these things are for profit, ALL of them are caused or influenced by "For Profit" ideas. NONE of these things help us without hurting us as well. Sponsorships are the closest to being mutualistic and STILL cause a temporary degradation of quality like an abyss into hell. The corporates are our enemies, not simply engagement alone. I believe that you need to incorporate(snrk, unintended funny) this because you have spoken a part of the problem out in good detail, but it is a very common issue for us to see problems only as they get bad enough to notice...

Because often we are not communicating enough. Often we are failing to notice basic things because its Normalized. But above all, Its because we're divided. For one reason or another, be it russian sabotoge, corporations, trolls, or whatever is the cause(s) of this, We are being intentionally divided into sects and segments. We are not communicating our different mindsets well. And I KNOW im missing things because the competitiveness angle is something I missed. So let us work together, and make a better internet by actually educating people and hopefully taking action.

Yknow what, Jack's right. At this point I wanna go back to how I used to interact online and just create for the sake of creating Definitely suggest watching the video

[teeto-peteto]

Okay. I’m not done ranting yet. Something that particularly irks me is when people… “waifu” the female characters? Like, the fanart gives them all the same face, the same curious/innocent blush? And I don’t know. It’s weird.

*switching sides...* (im joking i just like having the name i gave myself when i was 15, cringe and not shameless)

Absolutely marbelous rant indeed and this is highly tied up to the hypersexualization that goes over the internet and a lot of social situations that happen to internet users along the years of using social media and being exposed to pornography.

I will try not to rant too much and overextend but fair warning: It will most probably happen. Sadly, this happens all the time. Its no secret that League Of Legends is one of the most searched and most profitable sources to produce porn off. Im not sure if you're referring to this or just making slightly suggestive art of random characters like Diana and giving her this innocent girl-esque type of personality that is literally not hers...? Either way both are tied to hypersexualization and the roles given to women that still prevail nowdays.

Being completely honest, this is partially Riot's fault. No secret they always sexualize their characters (Both male and female but, you know, in comparasion the women sexualization is heavier) and they dont even try to stop this. Small design opinion/concept: I think they should have done Briar very very skinny, to the point of bones marking, instead of making her a feast for people with thigh and feet fixations. Its not bad that she has this body type and it somewhat makes sense why her thighs are like that but... You know, they could have given her this very famelic and ''creepy'' (not because anorexia is creepy, but because her vampire in starve condition everyone dismisses) look, make everytime she moves around that her bones crack or rattle... more thristy, more hungry. At this point she just looks like a girl that craves for chicken nuggets. She's would be creepy not because of her body type but because of this failed experiment 'russian sleep experiment'-esque type of character.

Yet they gave her a normal look. I dont want to think that the feet were intentional, i honestly dont want to think it that way... I just prefer to think that people fixated on this because of fetish and not because Riot thought it was a marketable strategy to sell a barefoot champion...

Ever noticed that League Of Legends porn featuring male champions (In heterosexual intercourses) are often the dominant, degradating and disrespectful? Ever noticed that the least manly characters of the same gender are often ridiculized or only used in meme porn? Ever noticed how female champions no matter her personality or sexuality (Portrayed in heterosexual intercourses) are 99% of the time the submissive part, being degradated and humilliated to the point of abuse of sexual, physical and mental type? And that it apparently turns on people? Ever noticed how the POC characters both male and female are either ridiculized or extremely fetishized in racist ways? Ever noticed that characters who are confirmed lesbians are portrayed in a fetishized way for heterosexual men even having them with male sexual interaction because 'oh we are lesbians but we'd love to have ur dick in our mouth'? Ever noticed there's porn of Annie and nobody gives a flying fuck and excuses it as jokes? The Zoe never ending discussion of 'she's 10000 years old she's allowed to be pornifyed'? Ever noticed there is bestiality in this community and nobody gives a flying fuck either?

When you form yourself a community of heterosexual men that will degradate women for even enjoying the same game they do, and you extend your hand as a company to give them sexualized by base characters, and you also give this to creepy artists, wich always have demand of new artwork portraying characters this way. League fanbase doesnt respect shit. Im not saying everything has to be vanilla but how damn high is the percentage of porn can be considered abuse and non-con? Why the fuck is this so normalized.

Look, to summarize, and using Diana's example for before. Its okay if you want to (for example) headcanon Diana or make a canon divergence where she is a lolita-dressed girl that is stubborn but sweet in the end. That is completely fine. It is not okay to portray Diana in a childish, exploitative and lolicon type brat just so you can jack off.

my honest opinion: do not expose yourself to league of legends porn. I've done it, and its traumatizing to watch sometimes, at least for a person like me who is both very sensitive to a lot of topics but also very radical with own opinions. Do not watch porn in general. Its the best advice you can get out there. Im being completely honest.

[starsandwriting]

Don't mind me im just gonna be mentally ill on main

[twicethetrouble]

Fun turtle crossover im probably never going to write

Mikey (2003/2012/And Rise) all accidentally end up in an extradimensional group chat.

- How? Mikey 2012 is how (here by known as Mikey)

-You know that episode where he befriends Chris Bradford online? That doesn't happen

- Instead, Donny realizes that social media might not be the best fit for his technologically inept brother and puts him on one of those random chatroom sites with the thought that he couldn't get into too much trouble there.

- He does.

- Let's just say for the sake of this crossover that all Michelangelos have (at least some) mystic energy, even if they don't know it. (rise mikey is f-ing powerful and that rolls over a bit to even non-mystic dimensions)

- And Mikey really wants friends that would understand him. 

- Thus instead of getting paired with randoms within his universe, that bit of mystic makes sure he gets connected with alternates of himself. Specifically Michael-2003 and Angelo-Rise.

- and they just stay connected.

- They don't realize it at first. They just think they're 3 random teens with similar interests 

- (Michael sharing the joys of Silver Sentry comics, while Angelo does the same with Jupiter Jim and Lu Jitsu (not that either Mikey or Michael can find anything on them))

- Then one day, Mikey (having forgotten they didn't know about the turtle mutant thing) sends a funny pic of Raph sleeping with a stuffed animal into the chat.

- The chat blows up.

- Not because they realize they're the same person. No, the three now are just super excited about how there's more turtles in NYC.

- It starts being a new thing with them, sending funny pictures/videos of them or their siblings into the chat. 

- But as the similarities start adding up, they come to realize there's something up. 

- (With maybe a failed meetup to emphasize that they really are in separate dimensions.)

- I just think it would be neat for them to interact throughout their cannon stories to both encourage and worry about each other (and help them get through everything along the way)

(also the idea of them trading advise/skills/ideas is fantastic. Angelo introducing the other two to internet memes, Mikey hearing about either of their villains of the week and giving them silly nicknames, Michael suggesting various pranks for unsuspecting brother. Oh, art trades between the three!? the possibilities are endless.)

(Plus an entire part that's just Donald-Rise borrow Angelo's phone to call out Donny-2012 for being a simp while Don-2003 sits in the chat (b/c Michael handed him the phone like "it's for u") just furiously taking notes on personality differences vs world differences. Which would eventually evolve into just the three Donny’s geeking out over tech and science for the rest of the day until one of their brothers finally ends up begging for their phone back.)

[jeffgerstmann]

thinkin about how much i miss IM services, and how they were the means to communicate. social media and discord feel too public, and their means of private chat feel too intimate, compared to like, AIM, or MSN, or heck Y!M. you had people on your list. fuckin talk to them, who cares. they've been in Away status for 10 hours? that just means you can ramble about nothing, forever! damn. wait shit i guess this sorta counts. everything tumblr related fails, so maybe we're good here.

For a long time (longer than it should have been, really) AIM was the way you talked to people who worked in and around video games. I had been using it for years at that point so it all naturally fit, but it quickly became the first thing to fall in the work/life separation thing that technology did to us all. So I was using it both to talk to whatever weird afterparty girls I was talking to on myspace _and_ conducting business on it? It was so vital in so many ways, I was sorta crushed when it shut down, even though by the end I think I was only using it to message people I sat right next to at work and John Drake.

Discord kinda captures the pre-AIM IRC part of my internet years pretty well, while the private messaging is at least a little AIM-like. But now all that shit is spread out and I feel like I have to check like nine different places to keep up with work stuff. I don't routinely read my Twitter DMs, especially the ones that come from strangers, which is probably not the smartest thing in the world. I wonder if there are people still sending me messages on Facebook?

Yeah, I sent a lot of late-night bullshit at various people when they were (smartly) away. AIM fuckin' ruled. I was into Trillian, fuck the official AIM client.

I do still really like that Discord has gotten me in touch with old friends (I rounded up many of those old IRC weirdos, who still just seem to talk about South Park all the time for some reason) and lets me interact with a whole menagerie of new, like-minded dummies. Discord has really been, like, a vital thing for me, mentally, as a part of this shift to working from home.

[simonalkenmayer]

so i cosplay and i write fanfic, so on those two accounts getting attention for my art would be pretty cool! im not immune to how nice it feels to be recognized. on the other hand, if that recognition spread beyond fandom spaces or even just got a little too much for my liking i don't think i could handle it

(by "too much" i'd say getting really lucky and if i had like 10k that would be fun, but that's like right on the edge of me going "nope nope nope". and i wouldn't want that for me, personally, you know? I'd want it to be for what i create, not an interest on who I am beyond that. i would be uncomfortable (even if a bit excited as i think most of us are prone to be) much much faster if i got fame over myself.)

i'd probably feel more obligated to do what i do and not just enjoy it, it would be way more anxiety inducing because i would feel "responsible" somehow - even if realistically i would not be. and then at that point i'd burn myself out or just ghost my social media until people forgot about me.

i like having a small group of people who know me in my corner of the internet, it's less lonely that way, but i don't want to be Known.

I’ll say this: if you get close to that number of followers, you have to have a plan. You either have to ignore everyone or learn how to filter and limit your interactions. You absolutely should not ever read critique of your art unless you can do so calmly. If you can’t, then that’s going to require some maturing for you—though that reaction is usually due to abuse and trauma. People raised to try and fail without fear do better than those taught to be the best or have fear.

Point is, there’s no way to protect yourself fully.

[iconsumeheadcanons]

persona characters autism headcanons!

hi im autistic and i started my day with sun so now im !!!!!!!!! some of these headcanons are from elsewhere on tumbr, but i dont know where :(((  so i am hoping someone out there knows that n that everybody knows that i love them <3

(also go check out mollypaup and i think hypeswap if you havent already! they post some good stuff autism+adhd hc too!!! i think.. oh! and thieves-in-the-palace!!!)

P5

Joker

there was some artwork from someone on tublr..where they pointed out that he doesnt really talk outside the metaverse so--hes hyperverbal as joker and just near nonverbal as akiren

he stims ALL THE TIME. that phone thing, the pencil thing, the little tappy tap of his foot, pulling at his bangs when hes embarrassed/smug. someone get him a fidget spinner. he’ll prob learn to do tricks with it

he probably sucks at focusing in class, like i know its just the game design but hes always surprised out of his daily “star out the window at the nearby office building” when his teachers ask him questions

mona mentions when the pt is at Wilton for the first time (after they run into shido) that joker eats like shit, and that could have multiple causes at the start of the story of course, but when i first played i thought that joker was a picky eater and that the variety (and amount of food) at the buffet would be an Ordeal...

tho mona makes that comment bc joker looked pale after having a little ptsd moment from shidos voice, but i didnt know that the first time i played

maybe when joker makes a face at ryuji putting so much ginger in his gyudon? joker probably does not like pickled ginger lol

his favortive foods are all spicy, which is why the curry he makes for his friends is always ‘overly spicy’, and why kasumi makes him a curry bento and joker kept going “...?” .... “....?!”

overly reflective glasses have been a great plus for him bc now he never has to make real eye contact every again!

mona Soft. play with Ann hair. maybe Braid. nice

puns (Gorou the Goroumet)

he has so many options to be straight up rude sometimes in game. he probably no clue on his own, which is why he defaults to Not Talking. people probably mention his constant scary face, which is just him being nonexpressive, squinting at all the fucking bright lights, and Tired

executive function who? we do everything last minute folks

high pain tolerance, which is why he was the kid that was always climbing trees in elementary school to get basketballs unstuck from the branches

his sixth sense lets him see treasure and possible places to climb/crawl bc 1. Shiny? Steal it. Steal it Now. and 2. Could i fit in that? Time to Find Out

probalby a bit of a klepto too oops. he’ll return it tho!! but he has to do it dramatically or he’ll die

cant sit properly to save his life

smells and touch are Great, they can keep him grounded when his brain goes off to police or dead rivals or guilt or

if a friend hung out with him and gave him total reigns of the agenda, he would choose to nap on the floor while his friend does something off to the side quietly

hyperfocuses on handy tasks (i.e. lockpicks, coffee brewing, cleaning, his part time jobs) and some things like movies and books. everything else is a tossup

his (normal) navigation app is his most used app bc he still doesnt know where hes going, even though he only goes to the same few places in the city

hates being sweaty, literally cannot stand it. probably double exhausted during the summer

but Needs Compression so hes often Struggling

Futaba

paraphrase from p5d “i have no motor skills so i cant play rhythm games :(” need i say more? (i will regardless)

echolalia all the time, from anime, memes, the PT

those headphones she wears all the time? noise cancelling ear protectors babey

only talks about her interests, “normal” talking is Not Easy, but she is still communicative w others despite her worries. shes not “hard to understand” at all but she feels the anxiety nonetheless

only talks informally, cannot talk ‘politely’ with out imitating someone around her

shes had meltdowns and anxiety attacks in game :( i relate so hard

Technology. thats it

def had an egypt phase that pops up every few months. probably came from yu-gi-oh

has Immune to Bright Lights buff.  joker is very jealous

“Time to make like a tree and leave!” and 30 other iterations

video game metaphors are the only ones that makes sense to her

probably relates hard to robot characters in anime for their general androgyny and confusion about human emotions and connections

probably gets told that shes “too smart to be on the spectrum” by teachers >:( she fails their classes on purpose

wakaba’s autistic too that just how it is

the Connection that she establishes with Joker is so Warm. my life goals include adopting an older brother like futaba has lsdkfjslkfj

also eater of 5 foods only, i mean, she brings cup ramen to the beach. i just really admire her...

hides in small spaces for comfort

doesnt she have like uhhhhh hyperthymesia or something like that?

Yusuke

art

his entire social link is learning how humans work, which i relate

talks seriously all the time

“sarcasm? who is that? are you saying I was sarcastic?...how?”

cant remember to take care of his body, and madarame did not help with that either

lot of uncomfortable staring, hes overdoing the eye contact thingy

infodumps all the time, doesnt know hes doing it

needs a lot of support even if he doesnt think he deserves it. no one ever complains about helping him out tho

visual stims my friends

he didnt know that you could look up pictures on the internet but he does know you can stream live videos of waterfalls and fluffy animales!!

I am certainly in the mood

for something salty today.

he and joker are scared of math. numbers do not interact

Yusuke, futaba, and akiren are a trio and i know this bc their first day of non-thievery interacts is Akiren clearing Futabas room w/o permission, futaba hyperfocusing on destroying medjed, and yusuke rearranging futabas figurines so they are more visually appealing

morgana is a support friend for all of them bc igor knows they need it

P4

Souji/Yu

yes, he mostly wears gray semi formal clothes bc parents tell him to, no, he will not changes this

Schedule or Death

“sorry, could you repeat that?” “huh? oh yeah, i was saying that--” “yeah that’d be cool.”

cats, fishing, he just likes to be quiet. you can literally spend a day at the beach just to think if you want, and that is what yu want

has a lot of scripts for things (of which he shares with nanako!) but if he runs out he just stops talking..

inaba is a godsend bc its so fucking quiet and warm

he Yearns to hold his friends hands, but he shies away from a lot of touch (excepting yosuke, teddie, and nanako)

Cooking and Cleaning makes the world better. he and joker vibe together with this

unlike akiren, he strong arms any executive dysfunction into Be Productive or Else. his punishment is feeling the pure anxiety of having to make up for ‘lost time’. (another symptom of his workaholic parents)

writes everything down, notes are very neat, has pages dedicated for bad doodles when hes not feeling his usual Super Classroom Focus

Cannot handle secondhand embarrassment (most often caused by yosuke) and will quietly slip away to random cats or origami folding

hungry, crunch crunch folks. probably needs chewelry bc he used to chew on his shirt collars when he was younger.

cleans up after everyone in the food court, constantly worries about them accidently hurting themselves. likely spends half of group conversations watching peoples hands

he canonically eats expired food, nanako plz help your brother

really clumsy, but people only notice after they decide that he is a cool person

video games are too chaotic for him

exhausted every night from the pure amount of masking he does, if a friend spends the night (or is like yosuke) they will know his more comfortable weirdo self (tho everyone knows hes a weirdo eventually)

hyperempathetic, sometimes just understands animals and children better than peeople his age or older

Yukiko

her jokes

she and souji get in ‘trouble’ together, she and joker commit crimes together

she and chie have to coordinate outfits, its important

actually understands metaphors, but does not understand people

like me, had no clue that creepy kid was flirting with her

she is very angry when she has meltdowns that might involve slamming doors and shouting. her parents call these ‘tantrums’ and ‘unfitting for a polite daughter’ but really thats because her meltdowns tend to be caused by arguments w her family after a long day of school and TV world traipsing

the metronome meme, except hers goes between Loudest Person in the Room to Quietest Pin Drop in the Planet. she is completely unaware of this

her atmosphere brightens when chie appears. that is not only the lesbian energy within her, but also because chie is like her Favorite Person

Cannot wear Pants. No (tho she wants to try it! but she puts them on and her soul instantly squashes)

happy flappy lesbian! watch out!

Naoto

the pouty face. all the time lskdfjlasdkf

hes really snappy sometimes and i love that for him. he and akechi should fight just to see what would happen (please read Bang Bang Shoot Shoot on AO3)

“do not touch me or my hat, thank you”

no one has ever seen him shutdown and no one ever will (except for his grandpa)(and kanji)(and rise)

probably likes certain food textures and will stand for nothing less, probably feels embarrassed about his preferences with friends

constantly jumps between ‘everybody hates me so i should act like them so they dont hate me’ to ‘i refuse to be anything but very comfortable as myself, and i dont care that im making you upset sir’

he and souji are the king and queen of subtle stims, but for unhappy reasons :(

does not make jokes. cannot joke around. understand? yes, do? no.

loose clothes are the only good clothes, but all tags and obtrusive seams will be obliterated by kanji tatsumi

not very empathetic so he probably comes off as an asshole to strangers (like when he throws away his classmates confession letters without reading them) but he tries so hard to sound comforting when his buds are struggling.

his understanding of others emotions/reactions come from his learning as a detective, which seems cold+clinical to others, especially compared to souji, whos completely unexpressive but very introverted people person

P3

Hamuko/Minako/Kotone

big personality!! very people-oriented!! koromaru and her are buddies!! when shes having a real bad time, shes very quiet and expressions turn off

interrupts herself in the middle of conversations all the time. no one knows where shes coming from. her brains is thousands of km ahead of her body

bouncey legs, swingin arms, twirlly skirt, little somersaults! when will she stop? never!

very obvious music stims with her hands and arms! people are like “oh there she goes! happy as usual!” shes listening to minatos heavy metal playlist

switches from exhausted to excited within milliseconds. no one can predict, not even her

SEES has to ask her for context all the time cuz she’ll just continue shit from 2 weeks ago without warning

professionals will assume shes very childish bc of how chipper she is, but she is beyond mature for her age and only feels comfortable enough to have serious conversations if a person has proved themself able to handle it

collects every little thing. her room is a mess and she has to get rid of most of it every time she moves :(

hates cleaning! smells bad, feels bad hhhhhgggg

dont let mitsuru-senpai see her bedroom

gets lost in the middle of conversations with others bc shes thinking about a story connected to one(1) word that was said earlier

 no sense of time and place, she just sees her friends and goes “ah, this is the right place, then” but junpei and akihiko are also lost so now theyre all screwed

Minato/Makoto/Sakuya

no talkies, no walkies

his story in the movies is him literally learning how to function around people he cares for

doesnt get jokes, expressions, body language, empathy, subtlety, metaphors, physical contact, or eye contact. aigis is probably the only person he truly understands right away

he is still nice to people because he doesnt see a reason not to be, but also he has very limited energy so only his senpai and old people get his most polite-kindnesses

cannot describe feelings for the life of him. the team wont know hes injured or sick until hes passed out

everything is too loud, time to drown it out with my loud ass music

rocking and chewing stims, ryoji is the first person to point him out for these subtle stims (not accusingly of course, just general pure curiosity and love for the uniqueness of humanity)

likes to cover his face with whatever is available, lives like a bat in a dark dry cave

will wear anything that has pockets and his blue/gray/black palette

sleepy at all times bc he never has much energy

when he was younger he probably needed a lot of support, especially after his parents died, because he wouldnt communicate like a neurotypical and would shutdown for hours in the middle of school without warning. probably missed a lot of lessons and field trips out of pure overstimulation

eating at all times. no preference, just whatevers closest

his meltdowns probalby include humming whining noises and curling up in a ball, which makes people want to touch him, but that is the LAST thing he wants. put a blanket on him! play some music! do not talk and do not expect him to speak

aigis is the only person who can touch him normally bc her hands are cold and he likes cold

never nude, feels mmmmmmmmm without clothes and probalby wears a full robe in the hotsprings

will not do things that take more than one step w/o someone else walking him thru it, which Same

[wheremyscalesslither]

About snakes, this blog, breeding, and the future

Please let me bare my soul, and if i can be needy for a second and beg for some positive reinforcement, id really appreciate your replies. Hell ill even turn asks and anons back on if you all promise to be gentle 😭 sorry this is sooo long, but i have a need to say it.

Sorry its not snake pics lately, and ive been so sparse in posting pictures. I have been putting more energy into working as a high school teacher and building shit and investing time in my hobbies.

I got a message from a younger dude asking for help understanding something and it made me think: When it comes to new keepers, I much prefer interacting with millenials and younger in the snake community. Even new keepers who are older tend to ignore advice from young people and any gender that isn't man. And the latter they tend to try and humiliate, even if the younger person knows what they are talking about.

I totally get why i became so bitter on the internet, and why sometimes i still react poorly (among just failing to train the impulsivity and negativity in my life). Ive finally found a pretty decent balance and healthy relationship with social media, which is a huge step away, at least at the rate i have already. I still slip on super bad days and fail to recognize and stop myself before i act like a complete dick, but i feel like im finally getting back into a place where im more positive, and helpful, and less reactive. And im learning to stay off the internet when i have bad days and CANT stop myself, but still slip 🤷‍♂️ idk im trying and doing well i feel haha

I also realized in the last year that breeding ball pythons isnt why i enjoy ball pythons. Dont get me wrong- i LOVE GENETICS and breeding, but keeping them a d enjoying their behavior is much more satisfying than pumping out babies.

I made the decision to down size, hopefully to 5-10 snakes within 3 years. I still have specific plans for breeding id like to accomplish, and i think id like to have a couple animals to breed every now and then, but i dont need or want this many breeding animals. I think somewhere along the lines i wanted to be "impressive" and gain the respect of everyone in the community, and that became ingrained in me, even though i forgot the reason i was intending to breed so many animals.

Then i remembered, i dont give a fuck what other people think.

I care, Least of all, what the majority of the breeding hobby thinks of me. Everyone knows my gripes with minimum care and promoting minimum care, but the sexism, ageism, and ignorance, and elitist attitude of the majority of breeders are other heavy parts that i didnt realize were taking a toll on me. Why the heck would i ever want to impress or be respected by those types of people? OHHHH I dont. Duh. Reality check!!!

Plus, ball pythons are lame. They are over done, and everyone thinks they are special for owning one, but we really arent. We are the bottom of the barrel in reptile keeping. I never considered myself epic for owning and breeding BPs, though my damn attitude never reflected that.

Anyhow, it's hard for me to think about breeding lately. Its hard to sell to pet owners, all my friends who want and can care for snakes have them, and the animal's i breed for are like.... breeding animals as far as genes go. Ive considered also lowering the prices as a special for new keepers, since many of my pairings are like breeding types, but im not gonna lie, the money is tempting to out them at market value, and the idea of getting back some of what input into just animals purchases sounds great.

Im not sure where i will go yet, but my heart hurts thinking about putting my snakes into an industry standard rack, or someone who doesnt have similar values in general.

As for this blog, im gonna keep posting snake pictures probably until tumblr goes under. I have full intentions to update and expand my resources, but i rarely have a moment where i actually WANT to do so.

SO ANYHOW thats everything

Sorry this is so long

[daily-dose-of-imagines]

𝕄𝕒𝕥𝕔𝕙 𝕌𝕡♡

hello! can I request a tower of god matchup? I’m a female, my zodiac sign is virgo, ambivert, INTP, I’m bi (leaning more to males) and a simp for 2d characters. I like anime, manga, webtoon, anime art, action/fantasy/shounen, pastel/neutral colours, fanfics, writing, soft/indie/japanese music. I dislike flying cockroaches, dirty places, school, insects, horror shows.

im a super awkward person when it comes to strangers, I would always overthink about what they think of me and everything, in short I just can’t handle strangers. I’m super talkative sometimes with my friends, I get angry easily but I hide it easily at the same time, though I would always express my anger with my close friends. I’m not smooth with giving affection bc it makes me embarrassed but I don’t mind affection given to me 😗👉👈

I’d be a tad bit embarrassed doe if I’m not close w/ them. I get sad pretty easily not sure bc I’ve only been sad bc of anime, or that one time I failed my maths. I suck at comforting people but I try 😔✊, I crave to make new friends but lol my personality rrly isn’t helping me even on the Internet haha…😭. anyways with my close friends I would use pick-up lines on them as a joke 🥰🥰 it was a phase lmao.

ty for reading! 💕💕 you can take your time btw, I’m not particularly impatient :“)

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Hello @astrxrism ~! You can most definitely request this match-up~! Thank you so much for your love and support~! I do apologize it took a second to get this done~! I hope you enjoy this~!

》》Admin Ko

𝕀 𝕊𝕙𝕚𝕡 𝕐𝕆𝕌 𝕨𝕚𝕥𝕙…

ᴋʜᴜɴ ᴀɢᴜᴇʀᴏ

As someone who initially found trusting people difficult, he is surprised when he finally comes to terms with his feelings for you. Though he may be cool and calculated at first, he’s loyal to a fault. He understands your distaste for interacting and socializing with new people for the first time as he himself can be rather guarded until he properly gets an idea of the other party’s personality.

It’s to the surprise of no one that he’s not only protective of you, but someone who stands as your pillar. He loves to be the person you rely on as he’s not as emotional (of course this doesn’t mean he isn’t completely in tune with his emotions.) 

When it comes to providing you affection, he does it in the most endearing ways. Be it gently ruffling your hair, grasping your hand when he feels like you’re uncomfortable, or lightly pecking your cheek, Khun is quite the smooth mover as he finds no issue or awkwardness when it comes to providing you with love and affection.

[toddhowardxreader]

so there is a very real possibility i could have contracted covid (despite not being in public since before christmas and having taken every possible precaution for an entire year).

my sisters friend came over for a couple days last week (thursday to monday) and he tested negative for covid the day he left to drive up here.

but on wednesday he got in touch with my sister and told her he got another test and it tested positive.

so if he got it when he was here. then there is a chance she could have it and then a chance i could too.

we dont know if he got it when he was here or when he went back to campus and we have literally no way of testing ourselves to find out if we are safe.

like legitimately no course of action we could take. neither of us have a car. our insurance is extremely limited. i cant afford a mail order test. i dont even know how the tests work but it doesnt matter because we have no one to take us anywhere. im stunlocked into having no idea at all how to deal with the situation.

on top of being unbelievably devastatingly upset and frustrated by all of this and the idea that despite dedicating months of my life to never seeing another human i still could have caught it regardless.

and i feel even worse because i had so many plans for this week that are all ruined. i was going to see my family this weekend and then visit my best friend and then some of my internet friends were coming down from their state to visit and i was so looking forward to all of this but im not risking any of it if its not 100% safe to be around me.

and complaining feels so shitty because people have lost so much more to this virus than just a week of social events but i really cannot stress how i dont go anywhere, i dont see anyone, i dont do anything, 6/7 days a week the only other living creature i interact with is my ferret. its been awful and painful to be so alone but apparently none of it was even worth it in the end.

anyways i be feeling more miserable than i have in a long time so ✌ maskign the pain thru cringe hyperfixations and fail shitposts ig ig